I'M A BLOOMING FLOWER

     Well hello there... It's been a year since I blogged!! I'm actually a bit clueless of where I am suppose to start. A number of milestones have began in my life. To name a few, the business-minded in me has never been this alive. The motherhood mode is now officially 24/7, my little girl Nea is now turning to a fine dalagita. (Sighed) whew! 😭😩...  My circus-adapted love story with My original Jose is still in the running show.  Still inlove, still holding on, still smiling. 👍👎👌💏💑💛💙💜 (My other Jose - Cuervo that is, has been in the back seat for quite a long time now. I'm actually missing him now. I should plan a reunion with him soon) My social-less life turned on this year though. Gained new friends. Hopefully they are matured enough to handle the maldita in me. 💋😉😍

     So to speak, I honestly believe that the balls are rolling now towards my court! I'm finally feeling I'm back in the race even if the finish line is still distant. At least, I'm getting back in my game. It actually feels good... To take control...to take it back. To come back... To be back! I'm now getting back to my better future - my better self. 

Oh well, Time flies... I'm feeling a lot of ideas that I want to write.. Places I've been, new discoveries, new people, new foods, Bad experiences, haters and lovers, travels, health,  ooohhh I can't stop... I have a lot.. Will finally edit them out in my mind first, I have so much to say, I might just mix all of them.. I'll just gather first my thoughts - again, and write them well and see how I can share them well with the world.

Meanwhile... This is me. A blooming flower again.

unusual, unexpected, differently happy!!

just saying...

i was with good new found friends last night, drinking and all..
i don't know what happened... i got drunk and i think i just spilled my heart out.

i cannot elaborate more into this since it will make everything more complicated.
why is this so questionable???

i never thought i'd meet a friend who could match
my "ewww" taste for tequilas and chocolates at the same time...
well i found one... after years...
i have a friend now who would dip fries into their mcdo sundaes
like what i do since grade 5!!!
funny... just funny
that you would meet people who think almost the same way like you,
like what you like,
hates the people you hate
and finish each other's sentences...

just funny that you would meet people like these in the most unexpected places in the most unexpected times of your life.
call that fate? compatibility? chances?
FRIENDSHIP...
im just glad i was given a chance to share some time with a friend

whatever...im just enjoying every time of it...
thank you new found friend
still, coz you came...

thank you for listening patiently
and constantly assuring me that i'm good...

i now have a friend who even younger than me is as crazy as i was when i was in her age....
now, she is more mature than what she think she is...
one thing common for the two of us .... we are two love hopefuls lost and hurt...
we just wanted to love, and be loved...
we wanted to be accepted....
appreciated
and most specially,
to be RESPECTED
go on girl...

i now have a friend who is a kuya to be exact...
gives sermons, controls you and sticks with your crazy plans...
i just appreciate how much i can trust him so much
and how much he shows concern and care for what is good for me..
i really hoped that i had found a friend like this years ago...

that night....
i cried like a baby but i felt like a damstrel in distress...
i need to be rescued....
i need to be saved.
i jsut wanted to be
LOVED BACK IN RETURN