Smile my Star

Y My star, 

I thought you were gone. 

but you found your way back. 

You assured me my nights won’t be empty. 

Even when hidden by dark clouds.

At least, I know. In my own sky, I will have my star. 

You told me you’d just always be there. 

You were sent in a perfect time of darkness.

When I needed to be found

And I need to find Me. I THANK YOU. 

Though in a different world, 

In a different time, In our sweet complication. 

we found something for us - a friend - 

Somehow, that just make us smile even from afar.

A friendship, close to real. So long already. 

We just pick up from where we left of. 

Maybe not yet so deep like childhood friends...

For we do not have the time... not even the chance. 

We KNEW each other. We annoy each other. 

We have years to count on who we are in each others lives. No nothing. 

Just my star. And your smile. 

This friendship is good and real. 

Now I value that. 

But we do not know each other...

But it felt like we do. 

And you opened a big part of you. 

Your world. Your time.

Your mind, your friendly heart, 

And knowing you?? Aagghhhhh!!! 

You are so deep and hidden. 

You always have a mystery wall. 

But you are reaching out from that wall. 

Casually. Once in a while. 

You always steal a minute to say hi. 

I must have have done something right. 

Take care my star. Take care. 

Know that I care and I pray. 

You are one lucky star!!!

Thank your heaven. 

You must have done something right

To deserve a friend like me!!!👌🏼😉

I am ok. Worry not. 

I’ll be around - I always say. 

Though I wished you can say the same. 

But I stopped wishing. No more. 

I just know you’ll show up anytime. 

I’ll be needing your guide 

even in my bright mornings!

Smile. My star. 😎😎😎. Smile. 😘

SINO

SINO?

Nasan ka na? Nasan ka ba?

Wala man akong karapatang hanapin ka.

Puso ay pagod na. 

Wala mang kasiguruhan. 

Wala namang hinihintay. 

Hindi naman siguro masamang magtanong

Sa mapaglarong tadhana. 

Hindi man ikaw. O iba man ang nakatakda. 

Pusonay pagod nang lumuha. 

Masama ba kong tao? Ako ba’y walang kwenta? Sadya ba kong may mali?

Bakit laging ako yung sawi?

Pagod na ko. Ayawan na. 

Para  tayong chubibong umiikot. 

Pero buti pa ang chubibo, Umaakyat muli. 

Bakit ako? Laging bagsak muli? Bakit ako laging wasak muli?

Kailan kaya ako tunay na liligaya?

Pag ba mga paa ko’y pantay na?

Ang daya e. Lagi akong talo. Kahit kelan walang panalo. 

Minsan tanong ko. Ako ba ang tanga o ikaw?

Sino bang dapat manghinayang?

Sino ba talaga ang bumitaw? Ako ba o ikaw?

BIRO

BIRO

Mapagbiro daw ang tadhana. 

Parang sirang plaka diba?

Parang pagkakamali lang. 

diba, ulit ulit lang?

Tumatanda ba talaga ko ng paurong

O sadyang tinatakasan ko lang sumulong?

Ang dami ko nang palpak. 

Sanay ng lumagapak. 

Bakit ba hindi ako matuto?

Bakit laging nauuto?

Bakit hanggang ngayon nandito?

Oo. Wala ka naman kasalanan.

Kasi pinili kong wala kang alam. 

Meron man ay pili lang. 

kasi mukang ako, para sayo ay hanggang dito lang. 

Ilang beses ka nang bumalik.  

Kita naman sayong mata

Parang nung tayo ay bata

Pareho tayong may ngiti. 

Parehong may tuwa. 

Parehong may saya. 

Magkaibigan lang tayo. Oo. Kaibigan mo lang ako. Sorry ha. Mukang malabo. 

Kasi mukang nahuhulog ako. 

Masisi mo ba ko? Iba ka din magpasuko. 

Huli mo loob ko. 

Alam kong alam mo. 

Huli ko din naman. 

Alam ko din naman. Pero kung mali ang duda 

Patawad. Natanga lang.  

Pero mukang mas magaling kang magtago. 

Pakiramdam ko tuloy ngayon ako’y gago. 

Kung mali man ako sa duda ko. 

Sorry ha. Hindi mo ko masisisi

At ayaw kong ikaw yung magsisi. 

Tanggap ko nang hanggang dito lang tayo. 

Huwag lang tayo magkalayo. 

Magtitiis ako mag isa. 

Ako na yung magkukusa. 

Magisa na kong magluluksa

Ako na lang yung mawawala. 

Sana dumating yung panahon

Kahit sa ibang pagkataon. 

Tayo ay magtagpo. 

At hindi na maglaho

Lahat ng ating tinago. 

Lahat to ay isa lamang

BIRO!

when everything’s meant to be broken

Iris

Goo Goo Dolls

LYRICS

And I'd give up forever to touch you
'Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now

And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
And sooner or later it's over
I just don't wanna miss you tonight

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's meant to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know you're alive

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause i don’t think thatcthey’d understand WHEN EVERYTHING IS MEANT TO BE BROKEN, I JUST WANT THEM TO KNOW WHO I AM (3x)

I just want you to know WHO I AM

PIECE OF PEACE

Everyone wants a piece of something,

Everyone wishes for everything.

A lot gets nothing. some gets everything

all are just a piece of things.

It is when you are at your lowest that you see clearer. 

It is when you are hurt that you feel deeper. 

As if all these are eye-openers. 

Wishing all will be better

A point comes when you just want to turn your back. 

No looking back. No stepping back. 

Forward you go. Moving on you say.

No more chances as they say! You stop. 

No matter how hard you try to do good. 

Once you fail - all else fails. 

Goodness is never good. 

Badness is immortal. That is what they only see. 

Decisions are never made when you are mad. 

Leave it as it is. Let it fade. Let it pass. Let it slide. 

You never forgive and forget. It doesn’t happen if it ain’t together. 

Time may run. It may pass. But tomorrow is another day. 

One day you wake up. You have made your mind. 

On your own. You decide. You stand.

By this time, you are unbreakable. 

What is left is only a piece of Peace. 

Beware. For the strongest and fiercest are the Scarred women. 

It maybe a pain from career, family, or the least is from men. 

Once the heart is bruised. That is venomous. 

It poisons her so well. It doesn’t blind her. 

It opens her eyes. It clears her mind. 

It opens her heart. Then she starts her rage. 

You wouldn’t know it. It is happening and once you knew,

You’d only wish for a piece of peace. 

Chances

I failed a lot of times.
I made mistakes. I have lots of regrets.
I miss my daddy. I have not moved on from his passing.
I cry in all of the movies with scenes with daddies in it.
I cry when I hear songs that he likes. I still cry so hard when I see all his favorite things.
I still ask for forgiveness.And I Don't think I will ever be forgiven.
I hurt him so much. I disappointed him so much.
I long for that chance again to show him how much I love him.

I am a failure.

People say I am smart and I always know what to do.
But that is not me anymore.
I am tired.
If not only for this one single soul who needs me in her life...
I am giving up. Since I am no good. But in her eyes, I am the best.
So maybe at least, just her at least...
I will try not to disappoint her.
I will hold on to this chance to prove my worth to her.
To not commit the same mistakes again.

I will try not to fail again.

My heart is not ok.
There is no more denying that my heart is hurt.
And tired. Perhaps.
My heart is giving up.
Literally and figuratively.
I loved so much it hurts.
I am loved so much... It hurts.
Love equals hatred.
Mistakes are not forgiven.

I lost my chances.

I thank my lucky stars for everything.
I am not well liked for sure. By a lot.
Even my fb posts are not well liked.
I know I have a few, that I've touched lives.
I know someday, I'll have a few who'd smile for me.
Laugh with me. Be proud of me.
I know I Have been true, brave and happy.
I don't care if they stare, or if they step back.
I will still be me. Fat and frank!

Even if it is too late. I'll try to change my fate.
For my grounded wounded heart, I am fighting.
This time, Im claiming my last chance.
This time it is gonna be me!

HOLY WEEK - Makinabang, Baliuag, Bulacan

Merciful God, release us from the time of trial and oppression, that we may witness to the eternal hope of grief becoming joy and life rising from death.

                                                                   Amen.

Holy week in Baliuag has always been festive, venerated and most of all, awaited.

For how many years, the town proper of Baliuag Bulacan always have about 100 or more carrozas or karo every Holy Week.

It is from this inspiration that our parish, Sto. Rosario de Makinabang, of Baliuag, Bulacan -  6 years ago, started to have our own Holy Week procession. Every Holy Wednesday and Good Friday, the carrozas walk the stretch of our main road. we started with merely 6 karos, but now, we are proud to have about 35 carrozas now. This was made possible by several devotees and volunteers. All the karos in our procession are owned by families that are active in the parish. As family volunteers that wanted to join, it is not a question of how big or small, how simple or extravagant, or who is who, that joins the procession. thus, the solemness and importance of the season is vastly observed. We commemorate the passion of the death and resurrection of Jesus Christ through our own way, not to merely perform idolatry, but to pay respect to the traditions of our religion. 

here are the 2015 Holy Week Procession in Makinabang.

Happy Birthday my Nea!

You are my Life! You are my inspiration. 

Everytime I get praises and people tell me that My Niña Emilia is being raised well, has manners and breeding, and that you are such a good girl - you just don't know it but I am sooo flattered and thankful that Mama Mary helped me to raise you that well. 

I must have done something so good in my life to deserve you as my gift. You are so sweet and topakin, you are smart and yet so kalog. You are so kikay and feeling artista!!!

 I can see how you are as a woman soon, coz this early you give advices to me to be strong. You are growing up to be my bestfriend. 

You rock my world Nea. You will ways be my superstar!!!

Bethany House of Sto. Nino - closest to my heart.

Ever since I was around 10 years old, we have been visiting this orphanage.

It was here where my first exposure for our Sto. Rosario church in Makinabang was held.

It was here where my first catechetical guild outreach program was held.

It was here where I finally became a  "parent"!

I have been frequenting this place for many years already. but this October 2014 visit was different.

we came back! we came big.  we came -  A lot!

My uncles joined me, my grandmother was with us too. My Ninang Delia and my Uncle Thippa from NY was with me too.

We brought lots of stuff for the children and for the whole house. We also have packed foods which we shared altogether.

as always, a visit to Bethany is a knock on my head. it is always a reminder that I do not have the right to question my God for all my "undelivered" wishes! 

I have visited several houses already, I have to say that the kids here are all behaved, sweet and really respectful.

One thing nice during our visit is, when we were there, a group of policemen and women from Camp Alejo in Malolos City came too. They brought some packed foods as well, They also have diapers, groceries and a lot more. The best news is, all these came from all of their donations - from their own packets. We salute you sirs and mams!!!

 here are the contact details for Bethany. I hope you can also come and visit them.

Please get in touch with their directress, Sr. Analyn. She is very kind and accommodating. I've known her for about 12 years already since when she was just a young nun attending to the kids, now, she became the directress already.

BETHANY HOUSE ORPHANAGE

Tabe, Guiguinto, Bulacan, Philippines

Contact Nos.: (63)-044-794 0200 / 044-690 2163

Email: bhso_orph2003@yahoo.com