kelan ang kasal???

just saying...

May mga tanong na parang kahit alam mo na ang sagot, gusto mo pa din itaning - at ng paulit - ulit..

kung sa sarili mo masaya sana isipin, maaring ang mga sagot sa mgatanong na yun ay nakaka tuwa o may mga naalala ka kay amo ginagawa sa sarili mo...

pero, pag ibang tao na ang nagtatanong, ang kuleettt!! nakaka bwiset. naka bad trip,

nakaka -  nakakapag isip ka ng oo nga no??

Ako ay nasa isang relasyon na tumatagal na ng 12 taon!!! OO, matagal na.. ibaba mo na yang baba mo at huwag mong iikot ang mga mata mo... kasi yun ay nung nagkabalikan na kami, pwera pa nuong highschool naming dalawa, na tumagal ng 2 1/2 na tyaon.. O, ayan na naman, nag rereact ka naman ng haaa???? talaga??? grabe ha??? -- oo grabe!!!!

Nung December, kinasal ang best friend kong si Joan... 3 years na yata sila ni Jeff, pero elementary clasmate namin siya.. ako ang Maid of Honor.. nakakatuwa kasi talagang, importante ang kasal nila. masya kaming lahat...





nakaka bwiset, may nagtanong. Ay mali pala, may MGA nagtatanong, oy, Jacq, kayo kelan ang kasal????


Nung January, kinasal ang pinsan kong si Bethchay... masaya din, pang mga Big time... nandun si Erap, si JV, si Binay, Sila Mayor, mayayaman at mg Sosyal na bisita...

Nag iikutan ang mga kwentuhan, naku Nakasal na si Sarabeth, si Clarissa na susunod.. wala ng nagsabi ng pangalan ni ko... tapos, may mga tanong na naman na kumalat...

 E si Jacq? kelan ang kasal??!!

Marahil sa mga malalpit sa akin at sa pamilya, hindi kaila na madaming pinagdaanan ang relasyon naming dalawa. Mga problemang hindi normal sa mga magka relasyon lang... (at ayoko nang balikan ang mga tagpong iyon)

Kung tutuusin, dapat masaya ako.. kasi, ngyon ko pa lang inu unti unting pulutin ang mga piraso ng nabasag naming relasyon... sabi nga, mabuo man ang nabasag, may lamat na.. Pero, dahil madami ng magic sa mundo... kahit konti, kumukupas ang lamat.. parang balat nga tao na ginagawa ni Belo... gumaganda din pala.

Ngyon lang kami nagsisimulang bumangon sa napaka sakit na nakaraan... at parang ngayon lang kami ulit nagsisimula... nag dedate, nag uusap ng mga plano sa buhay, nagkaka pera...

at kahit paminsan minsan na  mga napapag usapang nakaraan at hindi maiwasan ang away, medyo magaan ng dalhin sa dibdib..kasi pareho naming gusto ilaban ng patayan yung relasyon namin... kahit na sabihing ipinipilit... e wala na lang pakealaman - amin naman yun e.



Aaminin kong naka kilig ang mga kasalan.. nakaka inggit din... Pero EWAN ko ba at hindi ako nangarap ng napaka laking kasalan o ng traje de boda..


Aaminin kong ayaw ko ng ganung gulo dahil ayaw ko mag gown - hindi sa kin bagay... siguro pag payat na ko talaga.


Pangalawa, ayaw ko ng circus at yung mga eksena ng ilangan..  -- o tingin dito, tawa ng ganito, o yung damit, nasan ang belo, nasan ang cord??  -- e para saan ba talaga yung kung matagal na kayong pinag isa??




gusto ko lang yung kami lang sa pari - maaring may mga ilang kasama lang.. -- gusto ko yung tahimik, yung talagang usapang kasal, kami, pari at Diyos... palagay ko din kasi yun ang talagang kelangan namin e... 

hindi yung circus!!!!

tapos --  sa kainan at party na lang tayo magkita kita!! hahahaha!!!

Tama din si Joart, sa tagal na namin at sa daming problema namin, mahirap mag paka plastic sa isang okasyon na para lang ipakita sa iba na kasal na kami...


Minsan, ako man sa sarili ko, bilang babae, nag iisip na din at nagtatanong, Mahal, Kelan nga ba tayo ikakasal??? Mag popropose ka pa ba?? 

may maga takot na, paano na nga ba? kami pa ba sa mga dadating na panahon? paano na kami? paano na ako? ano na ba mangyayari?? 


kaya sa mga nagtatanong ng kung KAILAN, Sana maisip nila, Sila, sagot na Petsa lang ang kelangan nila marinig, samantalang, kaming dalawa, mga sagot sa buhay namin ang hinahanap namin...

ALAM kong dapat na -- at ALAM kong GUSTONG GUSTO na namin --- basta, wag kayong mainip, gumagayak lang kami... ng sitwasyon, ng tibay at lalim loob, ng malawak na pag-iisip,  ng buong relasyon namin, at higit sa lahat... ng Pera...

Sa ngayon, mahirap ipaliwanag sa mga tao ang kinalalagyan ng sitwasyon namin - pang unawa -- ito na lang muna nag paunang regalo nyo sa amin...

basta't alam ko sa sarili ko

 -- ikakasal ako... 

maaring hindi ko alam

 kung kailan... 

pero sana nga

 sa kanya pa rin... 

I am a MAYA ANGELOU converted FAN

http://mayaangelou.com/bio/
just saying...

next to Oprah my Queen, I now have MAYA ANGELOU in my life, whom I will consider as God's Messenger to me...






I do not know what happened this day that led me to read and get obsessed with Maya Angelou.

Now I'm trying to print / download and get copies of all her work... next stop is get her book...

well, (maybe) It actually started when I tried to search for self help "confidence" books and some research on how to get back on the rebound of my whole life - my love, my career, money, motherhood, womanhood and my whole femininity!!!

hahaha!!! :) what a word to use for someone who does not even wear make-up even once a week.




But as I read on to these quotes, which could be found in all of her works...

I felt that my ego rise, my head is nodding and my mind is agreeing... I AM THAT WOMAN, AND I WILL WEAR MY VICTORIA'S SECRETS AND MY MAC RUSSIAN RED LIPSTICK WITH PRIDE - STARTING TODAY!!!
and yes, I will still, as always will adore my Bags (no matter what size and name) and will always prepare my daughter's uniforms and foods - with honor and fulfillment.

I will continue to share my love, romance and flirtations with my partner because that is my right as a woman... which he gladly gave eversince...
I will be cooking well for my family and giggle with my friends more often, and now, with more joy because I own my happiness...

goodbye regrets and self pity
because now, I will own my whole world...

I WILL BE GETING THIS BUSINESS DEAL AND I WILL GET RICH AND HAVE LOTS OF MONEY -- NOT ONLY BECAUSE I NEED TO, BUT BECAUSE I WANT TO AND I KNOW I CAN!!!
my girl power "adrenaline" is rushing; and literally,

MAYA ANGELOU, and all her quotes - GAVE ME NEW HOPE in my dimming life, She showed me that LIFE IS GOOD and that by BEING JUST ME AND THE BETTER ME -- everything around me can be the Best in my life...  and I hope as you read on, you too, will be inspired as I was....

 let me share these MAYA ANGELOU QUOTES that can be life changing




"No Matter what happens, or how bad it seems today, life does go on, and it will be better tomorrow."
— Maya Angelou

The main thing in one's own private world is to try to laugh as much as you cry."
— Maya Angelou

"Women should be tough, tender, laugh as much as possible, and live long lives."
— Maya Angelou

"Live as though life was created for you"

— Maya Angelou

"I've learned that no matter what happens, or how bad it seems today, life does go on, and it will be better tomorrow. I've learned that you can tell a lot about a person by the way he/she handles these three things: a rainy day, lost luggage, and tangled Christmas tree lights. I've learned that regardless of your relationship with your parents, you'll miss them when they're gone from your life. I've learned that making a "living" is not the same thing as making a "life." I've learned that life sometimes gives you a second chance. I've learned that you shouldn't go through life with a catcher's mitt on both hands; you need to be able to throw something back. I've learned that whenever I decide something with an open heart, I usually make the right decision. I've learned that even when I have pains, I don't have to be one. I've learned that every day you should reach out and touch someone. People love a warm hug, or just a friendly pat on the back. I've learned that I still have a lot to learn. I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel." — Maya Angelou

"There is no greater agony than bearing an untold story inside you."
— Maya Angelou



"Pretty women wonder where my secret lies.
I'm not cute or built to suit a fashion model's size
But when I start to tell them,
They think I'm telling lies.
I say,
It's in the reach of my arms
The span of my hips,
The stride of my step,
The curl of my lips.
I'm a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me."
— Maya Angelou (Phenomenal Woman: Four Poems Celebrating Women)

"It’s the fire in my eyes,

And the flash of my teeth,
The swing in my waist,
And the joy in my feet.
I’m a woman
Phenomenally."
— Maya Angelou (Phenomenal Woman: Four Poems Celebrating Women)

"Ritie, don't worry 'cause you ain't pretty. Plenty pretty women I seen digging ditches or worse. You smart. I swear to God, I rather you have a good mind than a cute behind."
— Maya Angelou (I Know Why the Caged Bird Sings)

"When you learn, teach, when you get, give."

- Maya Angelou

"To those who are given much, much is expected."
— Maya Angelou

"You may shoot me with your words, you may cut me with your eyes, you may kill me with your hatefulness, but still, like air, I'll rise!"
— Maya Angelou

"Stepping onto a brand-new path is difficult, but not more difficult than remaining in a situation, which is not nurturing to the whole woman"
— Maya Angelou

"I don't trust anyone who doesn't laugh."
— Maya Angelou

"I've learned that making a 'living' is not the same thing as 'making a life'."
— Maya Angelou

"My great hope is to laugh as much as I cry; to get my work done and try to love somebody and have the courage to accept the love in return."
— Maya Angelou

"There were people who went to sleep last night,
poor and rich and white and black,
but they will never wake again.

And those dead folks would give anything at all
for just five minutes of this weather
or ten minutes of plowing.

So you watch yourself about complaining. What you're supposed to do when you don't like a thing is change it. If you can't change it, change the way you think about it."
 — Maya Angelou

Willing - Willie – whew! - my escape route!

just saying...
I was watching Willing Willie for his birthday celebration last week. I just ended up using my calculator computing how much he was giving all throughout the show. And oh boy, it was a no joke, blah-blah - 50 million peso game show…  

knowing me, I was crying everytime a contestant would cry. I always just "feel" them. I easily empathize with what they were going through even though I’m blessed to be not living in a shanty or watch T.V. at our neighbor’s house…

I easily laugh with all their kabaduyan, laughed on contestants rolling on the floors, cry with them because they are saying true "honest" words that describes “life” – real life for that matter, dancers doing the same stuff everyday, Shalani’s  –as – if reciting a poem – hosting job!

I am slowly liking the show – much more enjoying Willie’s style of hosting and using money and the people who desperately sold their embarrassment to that lucky 1 – 5 thousand pesos that can help them survive their –“toyo” – and rice meal.

In reality, what we see on T.V. is a known fact that, that is how life really is.

This is maybe how desperate Pinoys can get, rolling on the floor, dancing and looking stupid, praising Willie like he is Tom Cruise or Brad Pitt. – These are all understandable… what won’t you do for that jaw dropping cash offers. And in the case of these contestants, 5 thousand is like 5 million. And like what I said, 1 million and a house and lot is hard to ignore even by the rich and by the OFW viewers.

Now, I’m asking, what the hell am I blogging about this show??

I had the ff. choices in mind:

a)   

I    I am really moved and touched by their life stories – somehow I can relate – because my life is like trekking the Chocolate Hills in Bohol.

b)    

     This is the reality, all the comments were true, and they make me smile because even the slightest live jokes are true. all the crying was real, it was a daily episode of family affairs!!!

c)      

     Shalani and Will – playing with each other’s feelings “kuno” and tickling the viewers are a kilig factor trying to match the love teams in their rival teleseryes in the other channels.

d)   

            I’m tired of watching the same old teleserye that can easily make me cry – because again, I think I can relate.

I realized that the same night I was watching 

Willing Willie; 

I was in a bad day of emotional battles with people around me, financial issues, hurting dysmenorrhea and among others – BOOM!!!

The show became my “escape route” to make me feel good that there a lot of other people more miserable than me! it may sound harsh, but it is true...   And I have to be thankful to all the angels and saints and most especially to my God and Mama Mary – that I am not a contestant in the show. and that I'm just a viewer watching it from an air-conditioned room on top of my brass bed frames orthopedic mattress... :) 

- call it arrogance, but that is why I have to be thankful and wake myself up - I'm blessed and I have to look forward to living my life a little better. 

the show became my eye opener to move on & get a new life!!!

I ended up praying the rosary

and my novenas after the show!!!

Indeed, I am one Lucky girl.