destiny, fate, or both
no one can really know what would happen
a decade is a lifetime as it is
i missed a friend and an enemy
i miss how i was annoyed and how i annoy
i miss our laughter, our simple stories,
our long hours and late nights on the phone.
missing someone after 10 years
who is not your anything is rare!
maybe it's really just missing
or maybe it was really just that we jive,
we connect, we enjoy... after all, we have sense!
a friend will always be a friend
no matter what our history may be
there are just some things better left unsaid
a simple i'm sorry is enough...
but maybe i forgave and forgot not because of the apology
but because of the happiness and the missing...
and maybe just because, i want to move on.
hoping maybe, expecting and getting ready to get hurt again.
here i go again, allowing people to get in to my life,
my nerves and eventually hurt me again.
i was told that goodbye is "i will see you again, when I'm ready to hold your hand and you're ready to hold mine..."
i was told that letting go is "i will miss your hand. i realized it is not mine to hold, and i will never hold it again..."
and someone said, there is actually no difference
you are my right kind of wrong
you are my personal brand of tequila shots
you are a hard habit to break
you are my "me"
my exact twin, my exact opposite
we are not anything.
no labels can be given.
oh i forgot... we are just friends!
you are now my biggest fear to my strength
you are the threat to my weakness.
but who am I to you?
i don't wanna be in this game again.
I'm trying to enjoy and not expect
so I'm keeping it this way.. the way you do and the way you like!
just stay, even as my friend
even if by staying, and by making you stay,
I'm silently hoping, waiting and expecting
and maybe quietly, loving and hurting... again!
but i won't... don't worry, i won't!