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Thursday, October 28, 2010

describing life from google

just saying...
here are the random pictures of my life... 
(all from google when i was browsing)
they all reflected and explained 
my state of mind, life and heart ...
enjoy...






Sacrifices 
and
happiness




 





Choices
and 
decisions






 


Loneliness
and
fate 










 




Everything has its time… time to be gone and be back. 

Time to 
love,
laugh
and leave…


what if my time is out?????

I am now jailed by my own decisions of not letting go of those things that should have been set freed a long time ago.
I am now counting the years of my existence and happy are those who have found their rightful places in this Earth.

 

A friend told me to just go with the flow… he said: “ ayos lang yun, sumama ka na lang sa agos… para hindi ka masaktan” … I said: “ what if I’m about to reach the end of a waterfall”…  he said: “ e d ayos, mataas ang tatalunan” …  Me: [with so much things on my head that I wanted to explain to him…] I just answered with doubt and with a smile: I’m afraid of heights !!!
maria cristina falls - i took it when i went in Cagayan, Iligan, Bukidnon, etc




Funny! Short, true, but still funny! We have just equated our lives to the, perhaps, rapids of a river! We have just compared our maybe sad lives to the waters falling from the falls.



  
Boredom, 
like misery,
loves
company.
Drunkness
and sadness 
are always best with friends!
my ecstasy of questions




I have just realized that decision making should not be the hardest part of letting go, but instead, it is the “after party” of the deciding (main event)  And now, I know, I can never decide, because I never wanted to attend the “after party”.







 

 Life was never the same. And it will never be. It is true that we can never bring back any part of yesterday. I will only have pictures in my memory of both satisfactions and regrets but never contentment. 

I just can’t help but sometimes question my own life, and yes sometimes my God, Why!. Why is it that if He has control in all of this, in all of me, has he allowed these things to happen to me, knowing that I will not be ok afterwards…  with a heart full of doubt, it just hit me… true enough, that it is because of all these things that I was able to be ME now. That I was able to hold on the same cross that I thought I was carrying… I was not carrying it after all.. it was lying on my back to assure me I can make it through all these mess, I – Myself – have gotten into.
                                                            



No 
one 
is to
blame. 
- but me!





It just makes me so f*&%!ng irritated and really pissed to hear people complain and always blame others for their own miseries and desperations. Diba sabi nga, when we point the blame to other people, may natitira pang 4 na daliri na nakaturo din satin. Can’t you stop and think, maybe the problem is not with all of us, and maybe it was you all along!!! Maybe it was you after all? Maybe we were all like this because of you!









CHANGE...
CHANGE 
FOR THE BETTER!




As always, after all the turmoil and ecstasy that I have dealt with… still, I am standing strong. I am not really happy and proud of where I am now, but at least, I don’t know how it happened or who taught me… because still, I am not losing hope that like what Bob Marley will always say.. “Everything is gonna be alright!   







the enchanted kingdom roller coaster, always seen never riden

Life will always be that roller coaster ride… and sadly… I have never been in a roller coaster… 





But I’ve travelled by plane, by cruise, by ship, by boat, by a car, a 4x4, name it… all with a bumpy ride, and went out of it alive…






Maybe my survival will depend on my next ride.. It is for me to take and for me to finish… as long as it is not a roller coaster!









 I cannot afford to just cross the bridge when I get there.. I need to be ready before the bridge, because maybe after I cross it, there is no turning back of what I have left in the other side…
the very famous bridge in Paris where Carrie kissed Big - my dream scene in my life!!!



iceberg - true beauty lies beneath
 and finally.... the best ever reason why i still believe... the beauty of my life do not depend on what is just infront of me.. my beauty is not only skin deep.. it is this big heart inside and the good mind on top of my head that always give me hope, strenght and wisdom to move forward and carry on!!

... I AM BEAUTIFUL NO MATTER WHAT THEY SAY!!! HAHAHA

So don't you bring me down today.. or not ever!!!

I am like my chocolates... sweet. dark. reliable. your happy vitamins!







THIS IS ME.. TAKE IT OR LEAVE IT


and this explains it all... haha!!





Tuesday, October 26, 2010

ugaling ewan!

just saying...
Ang pakikisama ay hindi nasusukat ng ngiti at simpleng pag beso beso lang!

Nakakapikon na ang mga kalukahan na kailangan ay lagi kong sakyan dahil sa pakikisama.
Masyado naman yatang nakakalimutan ang agwat ng edad at kung sinoang kaharap.
totoo nga sigurong, madadaming nagbago, nagbabago at magbabago - sa pag usad ng panahon at sa pagkapal ng bulsa ng isang tao.
Pigil na pigil ang aking emosyon sa pagsusulat ng gusto kong ibahagi... dahil na din siguro sa pakikisama - nag isip ako bigla, pakikisama nga ba ang iniisip ko o pagmamahal at respeto sa taong maaaring masagasaan.

ahhh... dahil nga sa pagmamahal at respeto sa taong maapektuhan pero, ngunit, datapwat, subalit - HINDI sa taong iyon na may kasalanan...

May mga nais lang ako ibahagi, mga kaya ko pang sabihin, maaring sa puntong ito ay hindi ako magiging magaling na manlalahad dahil ako mismo ay pumipigil sa mga nais kong ilahad at iparating...

una at huling mensahe -- Matuto kang umarte sa kung ano at sino ka lang.

Friday, October 22, 2010

my chocolates are from daddy!!!

just saying...

today, I read one bad news! Actually, good for them, bad for me. :) I don't want to waste one more minute trying to answer the "why" questions...

And because of that news... I took my best drug!!! fortunately, my favorite supplier never runs out of stock!!! 7-11 has always been a reliable source!

ehem! i bought them in 3's always.. It should always be these 3!














Toblerone Black/ original - Cadbury Dairy Milk - Hersheys Dark Chocolate


yes.. it is also taken in that order... my personal prescription!



At first, I thought it was only those scientific or medical "enzymes" whatsoever, in these chocolates that releases that happy mood like taking the E pill!!!

as i grew up.. slowly I learned to rely on these 3 pain relievers everytime I am crying, sad, sobbing, lonely, or sometimes when I'm also just too happy and excited.. stressed... nervoous... almost every abnormal and out of the routinary feelings I have... I all felt them together with my reliable 3 best friends!!!



now, as in today.. it just hit me after taking my last bite of Hersheys dark chocolate... i just realized.. while crying in front of Magkaribal teleserye...



These chocolates or whatever is inside them.. does not really make me happy... they made me fat!!!


I was happy with them.. I am happy eating them...


It was all because I was happy with my chocolates... They make me happy eating them, because, all the times I need to be happy... they are there...

I have eaten them when I was a child with all the good, NO-- BEST memories of my childhood...

and all of those chocolates I took was from Daddy... coming home from work or from sabong or just from wherever.. He will give me all the types of chocolates he can get from the airport.. you see, my dad used to be an immigration officer, so coming home from the then, MIA ( Manila International Airport) was never a problem.. maybe it was even free for him!!!
it was Daddy's bribe for me...
it was the all original toblerone... cadbury dairy milk and the original hershey's milk chocolates.. but as i grew, i learned to love the new versions of dad's chocolates... and believe me.. he also loved them as I introduced these "dark" flavors--- because he was diabetic, that's why!

and now.. as i always cry and face each day of my matured life... I cannot help but always rely on daddy's chocolates...
Chocolates are my daddy's gifts to me... Chocolates are my dad's way of making me smile!!!
Chocolates makes me Happy because they are from DADDY!
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